Category: Personal

Contract Law Exam

Well, my Contract Law exam is over and I am relieved.  Now all I have to do is wait and see what happens.  I’m not all that confident that I’ll have passed the exam, and if by some miracle I do, I will only have just scraped a pass (which is better than a fail I suppose).

The exam was tough and didn’t really match up what I had studied.  I think I’ve done really well in one question, okay in a second and will probably only pick up a few marks out of the third question (I just didn’t know enough for any of the remaining 3 choices, so just had to pick the one I knew most about, which was no where near enough to get a pass grade for that particular question, but so long as the few marks I’ll pick up there get e a pass grade for the exam I’ll be happy).

I should have the results in a few weeks time.  So, here goes the beginning of the nerve-wracking wait.  I’m back at work tomorrow, which I’m not looking forward to, but at least for 15 hours a week my mind will be taken off my exam results.

Anyway, just thought I should update you.  I have some rather boring ironing to do and then I think I’m going to go out cycling (it’s a lovely day).

Procrastination

I did one of these stupid quizzes on the internet and here is my result, it’s actually quite like me:

You are the sensible, level-headed one who is always there to offer advice and support to your friends (as well as to tell them when they are being a twat).  Despite this you have a deep desire to be whacky and crazy, but would never tell any of your friends as this would ruin the superiority you have with them when telling them they are being a twat.

Yes, I am procrastinating

Law of Contract

revision

In under two weeks I am due to re-sit my contract law exam, which I have to pass otherwise I will not be allowed to progress into my third year.

Please forgive me if I disappear off the twitter and blogging sphere during this period as I frantically try to get to grips with the delights of restrictive covenants, the wonders of remedies for breach of contract, the fantastic topic that is Unfair terms in contracts (I’m sure you can detect the sarcasm in my writing).

Work

I hate my current job.  It’s not going well and I really need to get out of it.  In fact, I need out of the retail sector altogether.

You will know that I am applying to the Prison Service and that is progressing well to date.  However, I have a desire to do some work in the Youth work sector.  As you may know I volunteer for a large children’s charity, but I want to do more.  I want to be able to give up my job in retail and work with youth (just part-time while I complete my degree).

I wonder if I can find anything that takes my fancy.

Daily Depression Update – Day 2

Sunday was a relatively good day.  I went to Church in the morning and was encouraged by the messages I was receiving from God.  I was overwhelmed during the initial period of praise and worship.  We were singing the words:

Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.

And later (in the same song):

So take me as You find me,
All my fears and failures,
Fill my life again.

I broke down in tears during this song, one which I have listened to so many times (and one which I would say is a favourite of mine).  However, I just felt as though God was really speaking to me during this song.

The afternoon was tough as I reflected on what I had experienced at Church in the morning.  I spent some time in reflection and prayer.  I also turned to my bible and found myself reading some very inspirational words, words which I have read many times before but only really realised the significance of today.

I was emotionally exhausted from the morning and the afternoon, but I struggled out to the evening service and I was bombarded with even more from God.  It felt as though the preacher was speaking directly to me, as if God was making sure that I heard loud and clear His message to me.

When I got back from Church in the evening my mood was the best it had been for quite some weeks, and I just hope that it stays this way but who knows.

While I was reflecting on everything that I had experienced during the day I was reminded of yet more lyrics from another praise and worship song.  This, I believe, was yet another message from God.  The lyrics were:

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We’ll live to know You here on the earth

It was a stark reminder that even though I may feel alone and isolated I am not.  I have plenty of friends and ultimately I have God walking with me and He is there, ready to listen and to help if I need Him.  Such an encouraging day!

I know for many of you who read my blog religion isn’t really your thing, but it is of great comfort, help and support to me.  I don’t know how today would have panned out had I not had my belief in God and had I not gone to Church, especially given the content of my thoughts during last night.  Praise the Lord!

Anyway, I am off to bed.

Daily Depression Update

Today’s been a mixed one.  I’m currently signed of work because of the depression so have had the whole day to myself rather than being at work.  I’ve noticed some patterns from my last serious episode of depression including not eating properly (I’ve not had a single meal today, just survived on snacks and junk food) and I’ve slept for a large part of it.

I have managed to get out today, a short trip on the bike down to PC World to get some CDs only to get there and realise I’d left my wallet in the house, but apart from that I’ve not been over the door.

To avoid getting our electricity cut off and debt collectors turning up at the door I’ve had to pay £148.07 because two people living here at the moment have failed to pay their share of the electricity bill so I’ll be having it out with them when they get back from holiday.  This is money I can’t really afford to spend, but I can’t afford to be without electricity as well.  The real worry is that both intend on moving out when they get back from holiday so getting the money off them could be interesting.  If all else fails, I’ll have to rely on the small claims court.

I’ve not really managed to do any studying today for my forthcoming exam.  I just don’t have a concentration span long enough at the moment.  Am I ever going to get out of second year?  Maybe I’m not meant to, maybe I’m correct in thinking getting into Law School was a fluke and this is it.  Maybe I’m never meant to get out of second year?

Anyway, off to bed.  Will try and get the motivation to go to Church tomorrow, would be good to speak to one of the pastors about what’s going on.

Depression Returns

As you’ll know if you follow my twitter I am back on anti-depressants, which is not good.  I really need to get to the bottom of what is causing my depression and deal with it, so this time I’m in for the long haul.  This time I am determined that I am going to deal with the outstanding issues.  This time I am going to get to the bottom of why I think I’m useless and worthless, why I’m so self-loathing and all the other emotional baggage that I am carrying and this time I am going to deal with it and not run away when the elephant in the room rears its ugly head again.

Unitl I deal with these issues, the depression is just going to continue to come back and I’ll never get anywhere in life.

Boring Update

Okay,

It’s been a while since I have blogged, so I thought it would be time for a quick update.

I’m still having seizures and it is still annoying me.  I’m still under investigation and I’m due for another blood test on Tuesday morning – this time I have to fast before.  This has come off the back of a number of symptoms:

  1. Extreme thirst
  2. Being constantly tired
  3. Needing the toilet more than usual
  4. Some very low BMs (usually following a seizure).  Lowest reading so far as been 2.2

While I have not had any high BM readings it doesn’t mean that I am not suffering from episodes of abnormally high blood sugar, so, coupled with a history of diabetes in my family the doctors are going to investigate this as being a possibility.

It does make sense that low blood sugar is a trigger for the seizures I am having as when my BM has been taken following a seizure it has been quite low, but then again the two could be completely unrelated!

I am starting to prepare for the two re-sits I have which I am not looking forward to, there is a lot to revise for the two exams and I really just want them over so that I can finally progress into my third year!

Other than that life has been very boring, as you have probably gathered from my twitter updates.  I have some things that I hope to blog about, and hope to do so on Sunday!

Canada Trip – Part One

So, I’m back from my trip to Canada and here is the first part of my “trip report”. We departed the UK on time (thankfully – I was getting increasingly bored at the airport). The flight was more or less uneventful. The only exception to that was when the child behind me decided to through a temper tantrum over not getting a toy that was being sold on the Duty Free trolley. This wouldn’t have been so bad had it just been screaming and crying as I could have blocked that out with music/in flight movie. However, as part of her extended temper tantrum she decided to repeatedly kick the back of my chair for over 40 minutes! This was very annoying and the mother refused to do anything about it. Her only response was “what do you expect me to do about it?” I though (and felt like telling her) that maybe a good place to start would be to keep control of her children, but I thought better of it and let the cabin crew deal with it.

Toronto Lester B Pearson International Airport

We arrived in Toronto 50 minutes early, which was a nice surprise. I cleared immigration without a hitch, which was good. However, I didn’t have the same luck with Customs. I was taken for additional Customs screening (randomly allegedly, but I am sceptical). They asked me loads of questions (repeating the same questions to ensure I gave the same answer) and searched my baggage. I suspect that the fact I am a 20 year old student, travelling alone on a brand new passport might have had something to do with my “random selection”.

So after a trans-Atlantic flight lasting six and a half hours, a very long walk to immigration/customs and the delay at customs; I eventually made it to the arrivals hall where I met my grandparents and we headed off on the three hour journey to their house.

By the time we got to their place it was 21:15 (local time). However, my body was screaming at me trying to tell me to get it bed because it was 02:45. I struggled to stay up for another hour or so to chat to my grandparents, but I had to give in at this point and allow my body to win.

The next few days were not all that interesting. We visited a few small towns along the edges of the lake and I wasjetlag constantly battling against my body clock and the horrible jet lag that I was suffering. I’ve been over to Canada several times, but I never remember suffering from jet lag that extreme!

The weather was fairly good over the first few days. There were some spectacular thunder and lightning storms during the later part of the evening of the Tuesday and Wednesday. However, during the day it was worm and sunny – it only hit around 20 Celsius, but that’s a comfortable temperature.

That’s all on my trip just now. The rest will come in subsequent parts over the next week or so. There will also be some photographs for you all to look at as well – just as soon as I get a chance to work my way through the 223 photographs that I’ve taken during my short trip and work out exactly which ones to share with you!

Images in this post are not owned by me.